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Love: a pitfall trap one falls in and can't get out pierced through heart and soul

Pure and white you fell from heaven. The blistering winds and cold above. Shattering silence with a whisper. The one thing about Earth that I still love. Your message was simple and all too true. After the fall through pain and strife, once you've decided where you'll land, realism sets in - the shortness of life. Once crisp and clean and glistening, now dim and damp and sunken. From the moment you came to visit me, it was clear that your time is wanton. Live as though life will end some day. Make yours beautiful and brilliant and full of love. At the end we're all dim and dirty and battered. Live to be remembered as you were f

thousands of questions, doubts and blind trust fill my head hundreds of pains, craving and loathing cradle my heart dozens of emotions, sadness and hope drag upon my soul a handful of people, friends and "friends" take interest a few simple words, meaningless and all encompassing captivate my being two bits of nothing, the lover and the loved control time one odd girl, inexplicable and undeniable owns this world Mine

The advance of the human race is solely dependent upon the thoughts of the insane, the addicts, the unusual, the weirdos, the "special." The only reason for any change is the absence of something longed for or needed. The longing is only done by those lacking. The only lacking are those "unique," "different," "special," "strange," etc... Those apart from the "normal," the whole. FACT: Many human beings are deficient in serotonin, dopamine, norepinephrine, endorphins, and/or the ability to generate or produce these chemicals/compounds. The great minds of past, so spoken of, were those that - in their time - were forsaken. They died as not

I listened to everything except what matters. I listened to fear. I listened to doubt. I listened to insecurities. I listened to them. But I didn't listen to you. And I didn't listen to myself. Things like this are how I know. I know I'm not good. Not good for you. Not good for anyone. Just wish I had listened. When it mattered. Nothing to do now. Nothing but change. I just want you to know. I'll be working on myself. Working until I know. Until I know I'm good enough. Good enough for you. Don't worry now. Live the best life you can. Just take care of yourself. And know that I'm working.

The sound of your voice buckles my knees. My eyes won't move, they won't blink, they just burn and cry. The touch of emptiness wrenches my stomach. My hands won't work, they won't pick up, they just shake and pray. The sight of him in your bed mutilates my heart. My mind won't think, it won't accept, it just screams and thrashes. The taste of vomit rests in my throat. My legs won't work, they won't walk, they just stumble and collapse. The smell of dried blood fills my lungs.

now I rust in my flask a slow chalky flow now I take the task of getting to know all it is that I wish all it is that I miss now I sit on my ass a slow motion blow now I stare at the past and I don't want to go but now it's all gone the ground I stood on adoration contemplation liquidation evaporation - a love story better to have loved and lost... no better than pulling that trigger

roll over and burn the slow rusting turn my soul on the floor or whats left of it anyway because I found out today that it wasn't a grudge she told me the truth when she spoke about you I quickly dismissed it thought she still wanted me but instead she was nervously spitting conversation and she spoke about you but she told the truth this time and I found out today in the worst possible way from you

Used to think the path got shorter when you walk the line of right and wrong Used to think the tune got lighter when you know the words but hum the song Now I know the road gets longer steps are all that is cut short Now I know the piece is sadder when singing is your last resort I teeter on the edge of lies to keep you from the verge I wring my soul until it dies to keep yours preserved Been fighting you for so long just to keep you free Then a thought, stumbled upon I've been fighting me